Today is Diwali, the Hindu celebration with many stories behind it. In short, it celebrates moving out of darkness into light. I created a very simple rangoli for it this year.
Odd thing though, I woke up this morning not feeling so light, bright, and cheery. I’ve been fighting all sorts of emotions this week. I’m happy to be doing what I enjoy doing, but at the same time I’m still struggling with having to do so much just to make my humble ends meet. I’m really hoping for that big break one day before I collapse from sheer exhaustion.
Regardless how cruddy I feel, I must keep making forward progress … somehow … some way.
My 42nd birthday is next week. I’m excited at the prospect of having survived another year of good and bad chaos without having been locked away in a cell, mental ward, or urn/casket. A lot has been accomplished since this time last year. I am grateful for it all, but man, I just need some real, high-quality rest without a care in the world and the chance to wake up full of life and light!